Dear Diary,

I'm so pleased I could share my experience, happiness and sadness there.

There so many things happened from the last time I had my diary filled, and when good things happen, we forget those bad, what happened before. However, sometimes, you'd like to revert to the past, and review that made you upset, made you crazy...but your diary is gone, and there is no chance to restore it. Looking from one side i should be happy about it, because together with the diary every moment which made me sad and made me cry is gone. However, from the other side, when all bad has disappeared and things went well, it would be so interesting to read my thoughts and to live these moments once more, to realize the destiny. We cannot change things happened, and we cannot turn the time around, so we should live the life. All the things happen for the better.

I wouldn't like to turn to the past, I live that I live now. I do have my loved husband, and my little cherished child inside me, I do have wonderful home, and the things I dreamt about. No matter if these things happened not in the order I planned, but these are, and these are mine.

I do remember Life group and the journal writing there. Our advisor minimized me the grade for the life long goals only because my life long plans were:

1. Finish the college;
2. Have a child;
3. Get married.

She thought this is not an appropriate order. How can you have a child before getting married? She saw these goals as:
finish education and get a degree, then you can marry and have children. The thing was that she was Christian...and she would not probably understand that. This was the reason why my grade was minimized, only because of inappropriate order.

Now I remember this with a smile on my face. The thing I wrote in live journal 5 years ago became my reality, this became my life, and I would proudly say: Yes, I have my child before the marriage!!! What is wrong about it?!

I see that sometimes typing errors can become the reality, and my life looks totally the same as in the journal 5 years ago:
1) Got a degree;
2) Have a child inside me;
3) Finnally getting married.


"Carpe Diem."